Sleep my prince sleep, when you wake Walid will be here. In all your rough nights or days, i shall always be here and i shall always stand by you. i never in my heart meant for you to have this life. To be deprived of a mothers love ever since 2008 and now looks like through 2010. Why?when you grow up my son and when you can understand, i shall tell you and you can go find your mother to ask also. For what ever that does not kill us, makes us stronger. Remember that my son. there are many lessons that i shall pass on to you but never in a million years that you have to endure pain at such a tender age. I believe in you my son. I know that god has chosen you and by his grace and guidance, you will go and do great things, of this i am not worried. Therefore, be strong, be proud and dont ever let the wolrd get you down. you are my son and the grandson of Syed Nong, the blood and the name you carry will give the strength you need and the family will always be there to watch your back. Believe and have faith.
Be strong my princess be strong, you shall always be my princess and walid's girl. I will keep calling if just for 3 seconds to hear your voice. For i miss the stories that you tell and laughter that you bring. I miss watching you sleep and miss taking care of you. I am happy to hear that you are happy but in time my princess, you shall have to come home and reunite with the family. You are a SHAHAB, the first born cicit of Syed Abdullah, be proud be strong. I was left as well at the about your age for almost 5 years before i rejoined the family and it worked out fine so i know it will be ok with you also. They can try to cloud your mind and make you forget but GOD is always there and your tok lid and ami chik and ami zaki shall always watch over you. Even though i am so far away, know in your heart that i am just a heartbeat away, i will come whenever you need me, for i am your father and no one can take that away from us. no matter how many "sub" daddy you may have to endure along the way before we are reunited. Be Strong, i will find you. remember i love you and will always will, no matter what happens.
As for you mother of my kids, until you wake up, there is nothing to say to you. until you are able to look rationally and logically the meaning of Marriage, Wife and Mother, there is nothing to say to you. Remember me as i was before Zaki passed. I am back and i shall not rest. As long as you insist in playing games with the children's life, manipulating and conjuring lies, there is nothing to say to you. Remember God, know that he knows and make your peace. Until then do not expect me to play your games, i am done with that. Until you grow up and look into the future of the children and their welfare there is nothing to say. Until you can put aside ego, pride and vengeance for the family and the children, there is nothing to say. They bear their fathers name and their fathers blood runs through them, you know the family thus until you open up and stop this charade and deprive them of their heritage and family there is nothing to say. If god intended for women to lead then why would the Al-Quran says a wife follows the husband and the children bears the fathers name. i am their father, no matter how far you run or how deep you hide or how many "replacement" fathers you find, it is my name they carry and i shall not give them up without a fight. Until you grow up and i hope that the children dont grow up faster than you.
